Monday, 28 October 2013

searching for a better way to live.

Why is everything that is warped so popular and anything balances is not?
is it because peoples minds/emotions are so warped now that they can't relate to balance anymore?

Family life/ Relationship - warped
Education system - out of balance
The way we eat - warped
Health - out of balance
Lifestyle - warped. 

Divorce and cancer are so popular today.
real relationships that grow with time and consistent good health is not.. and if u talk about it they call u depressed or over sensitive! 

It's like if u want to live a compassionate well thought out life you have to go against the grain!
I too have grown up in this system.. what made me drop out of it? 
Where does this conviction even come from? this certain self belief?
It takes guts and true self confidence to be able to stand up like this.. where does that come from?

When i look around at people and their relationships their lives.. all i see is madness.. real madness.. its like they are stuffing their faces.. drinking /smoking/doing whatever they can to get high. most can't even have a real conversation anymore with the people closest to them... why? And i have done all this too.. what made me change? All i know is i want more.

Everyone is out making money so that they can spend money on all these warped things.. and no one thinks that wrong? Oh i know there are people who think like me - but they are few and far away.. not in my regular daily life. 

I have to instead deal with people who's values are completely different from me...they wanna get high/get laid/hurt and be hurt.. its like they are addicted to pain.. and their relief is shopping or spending money. No body stops and thinks.. no body wants to feel themselves. Maybe its because i have spent so much time on my own and done a lot more reflection than most people i know. I used to hate being different .. even when i was younger i knew i was though i did not express it that much.. but i do not hate it anymore.. its difficult for sure and can get lonely at times.. going against the tide.. but am soo glad i am different.. even if i do not have all the answers or solutions.. at least i am trying something new.. i have dropped out of the system that obviously does not work.. and trying to create one that does. 

So i say fuck marriage and children. Give me real love. Screw the education system - teach a child to read and leave him be. Oh and i do not eat animals and am vocal about it and will continue to be.. and if someday i discover i am wrong.. at least i have done the work/tried something different / and i will learn. 

There has to be a better way than this shite!